Why bother?

Ok.  So today I was walking down the corridor at work with two carrier bags dangling from my right wrist full of food and in my hands I was carrying a heavy laptop, laptop cables, remote controls and a huge tray of food, one of my bosses walks through a door I'm heading towards, lets it close in my face and I'm standing there thinking to myself, ok, alright, I'll glide through the fu**ing thing shall I!  Or maybe do a Rentaghost and just appear on the other side of the door.  No apology, no nothing.  People are so rude - so why am I surprised?

Who would be a secretary?

On my way to bed but thinking about my day.  I go in work after a week of being off on leave and I think 3 people showed interest in my week off.  They're quicker to show interest if I do something they perceive as 'wrong'.  I can't ever stop thinking about why I bother.  But then today I kept muttering to myself Keep Calm and Carry On - well said!

Pensive Monday

Sitting here on the couch at 2242hrs exactly wondering why I was dumped.  Wishing I didn't hate him but it's hard not to.  I feel very confused, lost, hurt, upset and angry.  Also feeling very lonely.  Weird thing is I felt lonely with him at times.  I don't want to have to go through the dating thing again, it's so exhausting.  18 months of seeing someone and they end it with no nothing, no discussion or conversation, just f**k all.  Thanks.