Pensive Monday

Sitting here on the couch at 2242hrs exactly wondering why I was dumped.  Wishing I didn't hate him but it's hard not to.  I feel very confused, lost, hurt, upset and angry.  Also feeling very lonely.  Weird thing is I felt lonely with him at times.  I don't want to have to go through the dating thing again, it's so exhausting.  18 months of seeing someone and they end it with no nothing, no discussion or conversation, just f**k all.  Thanks.